Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Just rambling.

My school has been on strike now for three months. Its extremely frustrating and makes me want to quit. I have my RPN and decided to go to university to get my RN. Many people around me suggested that this was the way to go. That school debt is good debt and don't worry, you'll have it paid off in no time. I struggled so much with the decision, because I know that I don't want to be a normal nurse. I do not want to work on the floor. The thought of having to do more 12 hour shifts scares me. Not because I can't do them, but I won't live at home forever and I don't want to leave Brady or my family(hopefully I have one) that long. I don't want to work nights either. The job I want, is something that is Mon-Fri, 9-5, desk chair me. If I could find an administrative job that is related to nursing, why I'd be the happiest girl EVER. Why did I go to school? I was looking on the job postings page on the Sickkids website and all of the admin jobs required an RN level of training. So I'm hopeful that I can find a job that I love out of school, but I'm extremely nervous about whether I will or not. I also know that I want to be a stay-at-home mom, when I eventually have children.
So ya, it already feels soooo far away that I will actually graduate(April 2010) and with the strike that day is getting farther and farther away. I want to quit because I feel like I'm not getting anywhere. I feel like my life won't truly start until I'm done school. I don't like my life while I'm in school, I'll be 25 in March and I still live at home, don't have a job, live off of my parents, have large debt, and have a bf. This could easily explain some sort of 18 year old stoner or something. I am a crumbum and I hate it.
I'm writing this to avoid writing a paper. I have three that I could have completed during this blessed strike. But when we go back, will the assignments just be thrown out? That's the tricky part, we don't know what they will throw out and what they will make us do. Or they may change the assignments altogether. I know I should just get them done, then if I do need them they are already completed and I won't need to stress, but OHHHHHH the procrastination. All I really want to do is watch movies and do crafting things. If only I had a passion for papers like I have a passion for scrapbooking, photos, knitting, and sewing....
The teachers voted yesterday and today on whether to accept the latest offer and the union has been telling them to vote NO. So it sounds as though this strike will continue. While the strike hasn't really affected me personally too badly(because I can live at home rent free and commute for 2hours) I feel for the people who it affects deeply. The people who have rented apartments or the people who travel for school will suffer from this. There is a rumor that the school is offering UP TO $100 for reimbursement. Gee thanks. Meanwhile, cheap rent is like $1000 in the city! Crazy.
Anyways, that's just whats on my mind today.

1 comment:

  1. Bah, strikes suck. I hope yours is resolved soon...