Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Winter Woes and Spring Wishes...

I’m a winter person. I love winter. I prefer to be cold than hot. I like being able to layer clothes on and feel cozy. Somehow winter reminds me of being a child, and I love anything that makes me feel that way. Nostalgic. I love to curl up on the couch to watch a movie with a hot tea (my absolute favourite beverage, I drink entirely too much of it) or a hot chocolate, with a big warm blanket on my and Brady at my side, curled up under the blanket of course. I think this is a Boston Terrier trait. He can sleep all night long under my duvet, I have no idea how. I hate having my head or face under the covers, but apparently he loves it. Also Christmas is my favourite time of year. I just love the feeling of it. My sweet boy enjoying some sun that we finally got last week.

I do not ski or snowboard. I do love skating (haven’t been out this year once even, pitiful). And I do love to go for walks. I love being outside in the winter and coming in with pink cheeks. I love coming in and smelling something cooking, dinner or cookies or cake, something like that. I can’t go for long walks with Brady this time of year because he has what I call, and ‘fair-weather feet’. We cannot make it very far before the poor fella is lifting his feet and wanting to be picked up. Let me tell you, it's tricky when he is a large 30 pound guy. It doesn’t really sound that heavy, but he really feels it. I think I need to take up a winter activity, like snowshoeing. I think I’d really enjoy it. To be honest I’m afraid to even try it because I think it would be extremely difficult due to my out-of-shapeness.
I’m ready for spring. This is not usually me. But I am. Everyone that I talk to feels this way. Maybe it’s because there will be some changes in my life come spring. I should be finishing my third year of university(strike depending), which means I’m finally in my last year, which means I’m so close to being finished school. I will become an Aunt for the first time! Auntie Em. I can’t wait. The thought of a sweet little baby coming into our lives excites me so much, but at the same time makes me wish that I lived much closer to my siblings. I should be lucky that I live 1.5 hours away from them, but it feels far and plans must be made in advance to get together. I wish I lived across town from them and could just stop in or have them come over for dinner without having to plan a month prior. I suppose that’s just the way life goes. I feel fortunate that I'm still close with each of them, despite the distance and can talk with them about anything. So that is certainly something to be thankful for.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Just rambling.

My school has been on strike now for three months. Its extremely frustrating and makes me want to quit. I have my RPN and decided to go to university to get my RN. Many people around me suggested that this was the way to go. That school debt is good debt and don't worry, you'll have it paid off in no time. I struggled so much with the decision, because I know that I don't want to be a normal nurse. I do not want to work on the floor. The thought of having to do more 12 hour shifts scares me. Not because I can't do them, but I won't live at home forever and I don't want to leave Brady or my family(hopefully I have one) that long. I don't want to work nights either. The job I want, is something that is Mon-Fri, 9-5, desk chair me. If I could find an administrative job that is related to nursing, why I'd be the happiest girl EVER. Why did I go to school? I was looking on the job postings page on the Sickkids website and all of the admin jobs required an RN level of training. So I'm hopeful that I can find a job that I love out of school, but I'm extremely nervous about whether I will or not. I also know that I want to be a stay-at-home mom, when I eventually have children.
So ya, it already feels soooo far away that I will actually graduate(April 2010) and with the strike that day is getting farther and farther away. I want to quit because I feel like I'm not getting anywhere. I feel like my life won't truly start until I'm done school. I don't like my life while I'm in school, I'll be 25 in March and I still live at home, don't have a job, live off of my parents, have large debt, and have a bf. This could easily explain some sort of 18 year old stoner or something. I am a crumbum and I hate it.
I'm writing this to avoid writing a paper. I have three that I could have completed during this blessed strike. But when we go back, will the assignments just be thrown out? That's the tricky part, we don't know what they will throw out and what they will make us do. Or they may change the assignments altogether. I know I should just get them done, then if I do need them they are already completed and I won't need to stress, but OHHHHHH the procrastination. All I really want to do is watch movies and do crafting things. If only I had a passion for papers like I have a passion for scrapbooking, photos, knitting, and sewing....
The teachers voted yesterday and today on whether to accept the latest offer and the union has been telling them to vote NO. So it sounds as though this strike will continue. While the strike hasn't really affected me personally too badly(because I can live at home rent free and commute for 2hours) I feel for the people who it affects deeply. The people who have rented apartments or the people who travel for school will suffer from this. There is a rumor that the school is offering UP TO $100 for reimbursement. Gee thanks. Meanwhile, cheap rent is like $1000 in the city! Crazy.
Anyways, that's just whats on my mind today.

Sunday, January 11, 2009

Nothing much to say.

I'm going to attempt a picture in the place that I want it to be..according to the help provided by Sohobutterfly. Thanks again for the help!!

I went to a church this morning that I have never been to before and I really loved it! I was surprised. The pastors(two of them) were both great and were able to keep it lively so that you could pay attention the whole time. A nice change from Mikes Catholic church, which I find totally scary and uncomfortable, to my moms BIC church, which has THE most boring pastor on the planet. I've had a desire to find a church that I love and start attending regularly. I've been a holidays-only church attender previously. I was never baptised and was not raised with any sort of religion. So I figure that its a great opportunity to find a religion and a church that I feel 100% comfortable with. I may have found it! But there are quite a few other churches in town that I would like to visit as well, to see how I like them.

So ya, thats about all that is new with me. My school is STILL on strike...we are at week 10 or 11, something like that. While I've been completely enjoying having nothing to do, I just want to get school over with. It needs to begin for me to do that! I'm very eager to be finished so that I can start making money. I desperatly want to SHOP. haha I miss shopping so badly. AHHHhhhhhhh The life of a crumbum student. One day....

YAAAAY I totally got that pic to move finally!!!