Thursday, December 2, 2010

Reverb10 DAY 2

I'm participating in reberb10 this month, which can be found over here, or by clicking on the reverb10 button on the side! The website explains what this is all about:

Reverb 10 is an annual event and online initiative to reflect on your year and manifest what’s next. The end of the year is an opportunity to reflect on what's happened, and to send out reverberations for the year ahead. With Reverb 10, we'll do both.
This December we invite you to share your story and join us in reflection.

Each day they will post a new 'prompt' for you to write about!

Today's prompt is:
December 2 Writing.
What do you do each day that doesn’t contribute to your writing — and can you eliminate it? I procrastinate. BIG TIME. I don't know if it's because I'm not inspired enough to have a thousand things running through my head to write about (I'm really not very exciting) or if it is pure laziness, perhaps both?

Right now I know I don't do a heck of a lot that doesn't involve my couch and TV because of my pesky little friend calling 'morning sickness', which I would like to rename to something more appropriate to reflect the 24/7 feel like deathness of the ailment. But even when I'm feeling well I easily get distracted by the TV (I'm hoping to one day get rid of it, if I can convince Mike, I'm perfectly happy with just country cable) and wasting time looking at celebrity gossip and facebook on the Internet. Facebook is something else I think I will rid myself of soon, since I use it mostly as a creeping tool and feel obligated to have 'friends' on there that I don't even like. It's all nonsense. I find the less I give in to these easy distractions the more I get done (around the house, maintaining relationships, reading, crafts like sewing and knitting, and basically just being present in my life and the lives of those important to me).  

I would like to be proactive in implementing these changes and hope that I can be a more productive person, and a better person to those around me.

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Reverb10

After reading Kapachino's blog post about Reverb10, I decided to try to participate. I'm having trouble posting often and I thought that perhaps this would be great way to help me out. Plus, it gives me a great opportunity to reflect on the whirl-goneinaflash-of-a-year I've had and hopefully project something greater for the year coming!

December 1 One Word.



Encapsulate the year 2010 in one word.  Explain why you’re choosing that word. Change. I don't mean the jingle in my husband's jeans (yes we listen to country music). The last year holds so many changes in my life. I touched on the recent ones in my last blog post, but in the past whole year?! So many more. I struggled with school (commuting, tiredness, GI issues), adjusted to life away from my family, acclimated myself to a new community (which I don't think I did successfully), completed the hardest thing I've ever done - my full time clinical placement (difficult because of the distance of the hospital and the hours I was there) but was such a fulfilling area of nursing for me to be involved with and praised for by pediatricians, patient's parents, and some fellow nurses, learned the devastating news that my overall average was .18 too low to graduate (I'm STILL in the process of trying to sort this out, it's extremely frustrating and I'm still struggling to learn the lesson in this situation to be honest), our home sold and we built a new one which meant moving to a new town, started a new job (which I struggle with because I don't like it, and its awful hours and awful shifts, because of this I hate being a nurse and wish I had never done it), got engaged, got married, got pregnant. Change.
 
Now, imagine it’s one year from today, what would you like the word to be that captures 2011 for you? Peace. I would like to feel at peace. I would like to find a job that I like so that I can be at peace with that area of my life. I think if that were resolved I would feel much happier and more fulfilled. I hope that I feel better for the rest of this pregnancy so that I can actually enjoy it. I hope that our child enters this world in a peaceful way! And we are just the happiest little family with our new little one. I hope that school gets sorted out and I can finally graduate. Perhaps take some office courses in order to make the change in career that I'm hoping for to an administrative job. I hope that our marriage continues to grow strong and happier each day. I get teary thinking of my hopes for the next year because it will be a big year for us becoming parents and all. Basically I hope that I'm happy and that my family is too. I'm hoping to find some peace from all this change! But as I type this out I can see that there will be plenty of changes in the coming year as well!