Reverb10

After reading Kapachino's blog post about Reverb10, I decided to try to participate. I'm having trouble posting often and I thought that perhaps this would be great way to help me out. Plus, it gives me a great opportunity to reflect on the whirl-goneinaflash-of-a-year I've had and hopefully project something greater for the year coming!

December 1 One Word.



Encapsulate the year 2010 in one word.  Explain why you’re choosing that word. Change. I don't mean the jingle in my husband's jeans (yes we listen to country music). The last year holds so many changes in my life. I touched on the recent ones in my last blog post, but in the past whole year?! So many more. I struggled with school (commuting, tiredness, GI issues), adjusted to life away from my family, acclimated myself to a new community (which I don't think I did successfully), completed the hardest thing I've ever done - my full time clinical placement (difficult because of the distance of the hospital and the hours I was there) but was such a fulfilling area of nursing for me to be involved with and praised for by pediatricians, patient's parents, and some fellow nurses, learned the devastating news that my overall average was .18 too low to graduate (I'm STILL in the process of trying to sort this out, it's extremely frustrating and I'm still struggling to learn the lesson in this situation to be honest), our home sold and we built a new one which meant moving to a new town, started a new job (which I struggle with because I don't like it, and its awful hours and awful shifts, because of this I hate being a nurse and wish I had never done it), got engaged, got married, got pregnant. Change.
 
Now, imagine it’s one year from today, what would you like the word to be that captures 2011 for you? Peace. I would like to feel at peace. I would like to find a job that I like so that I can be at peace with that area of my life. I think if that were resolved I would feel much happier and more fulfilled. I hope that I feel better for the rest of this pregnancy so that I can actually enjoy it. I hope that our child enters this world in a peaceful way! And we are just the happiest little family with our new little one. I hope that school gets sorted out and I can finally graduate. Perhaps take some office courses in order to make the change in career that I'm hoping for to an administrative job. I hope that our marriage continues to grow strong and happier each day. I get teary thinking of my hopes for the next year because it will be a big year for us becoming parents and all. Basically I hope that I'm happy and that my family is too. I'm hoping to find some peace from all this change! But as I type this out I can see that there will be plenty of changes in the coming year as well!

My long lost blog...

Geeze Luigi I'm bad at blogging! I read blogs and twitters daily, if I have time. But I appear to be super lazy about writing a blog post. I'm going to try to be better at this! Here's an update on things I've been up to.

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School. Its been very busy and frustrating. Murphy's Law continues, I don't understand why. But every little thing that can, has gone wrong. Or at least been a huge pain. This week coming up is mid-term week so its extra hectic. I commute two hours to school and just over an hour to clinical for four days each week and its getting really tiring on me. I don't have anyone to commute with, so its expensive and exhausting. Also, OSAP angers me beyond words, only tears. I hate you OSAP.

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The boyfriend and I have decided to move in together. Which means I'm moving over an hour away to the country! I'm so excited for this. I think it will be great for me to have a new beginning in a fresh town and learning all about how they do things up there. I'm also excited to move out from home. I love my mom so much, and I probably couldn't do anything without her love and support, but I'm so ready to be out on my own!

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I've been battling stomach issues for years. I constantly have an upset stomach and is always worse when I'm stressed out or anxious. I have IBS. It got so bad for me since I've started school. Every day I come home and my stomach is so bloated that I look about 7 months pregnant, I'm not even exaggerating one bit. My stomach will be rock hard and hurt so much. Then on top of that I started getting daily, all day, nausea and heartburn. So I finally broke down and asked my doctor for something. She gave me ranitidine, which helped for a bit then all my symptoms came back and now she gave me prevacid, which I think after about a week may actually be working. I am so thankful for this. My stomach has gone almost flat(except for my chub of course) and is pain-free. HALLELUJAH! I seriously will not miss the old ladies from the nursing home at my clinical coming up and rubbing my belly because they think I'm pregnant. Not at all. It is so embarrassing.

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I'm about to become an AUNTIE EM for the first time! And I could not be more excited. Hopefully the little one(I know the sex but its a surprise) will be here tonight or tomorrow! Mom and I held a baby shower for her(my SIL) and I think it went well. I took some pics, but of course I'm still attempting to learn my camera and I had it on the wrong setting and didn't adjust it, so they are all grainy. I was mega disappointed. So I only got a few that turned out from my camera, and they are not really of the baby shower at all! My eleven year old cousin came over early because she wanted to help. Yes she is tall, taller than me.

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So, these are some of the things that I've been doing. Hopefully I will update and create blog posts much more regularly in the future! Off to have a blissful(really not, I'm doing homework and studying for mid-terms) Saturday night alone watching movies, eating chips and drinking root beer(these things are all true though).

PS. I find posting and moving around pictures so annoying on this thing, it never works the way I want it to, that's why the pics are in weird places, I just couldn't get them to move and gave up. But I thought they were cute. I don't know if its because I have a laptop without a mouse or if I'm not doing it wrong or am just plain bad at it. But I find this blogging thing difficult. I need to take a class or something.